September 12, 2017

 “Next time you’re stressed:  take a step back, inhale and laugh.  Remember who you are

and why you’re here.  You’re never given anything in this world that you can’t handle.

Be strong, be flexible, love yourself, and love others.  Always remember, just keep

moving forward.” – Unknown



Never let other people's opinions of you create your reality, for it is in their own reality where they have insecurities about themselves, and now they're seeing them in you. Which is a true gift actually. For the ugly we see in others are just unloved parts of ourselves. And isn't that the journey of life? To bring love to every corner of our soul, even the places we've forgotten..

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